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Je vous croyais
Je croyais en notre amour
Je croyais en votre mensonge
Il suffit de l’accepter, vous avez dit
Non, il vous aime ils ont dit
Ensuite, la vérité est révélée
Je me retrouve avec pas de réponse
aucune compréhension
aucune revoir
Il n’est pas tenu
rien du tout


Before I Slumber 8

I love the sound of the rain
The rumble of the thunder
The flash of the lightening
The calmness after the storm
Storms are necessary for the life process of growth.
Without the rain grass doesn’t grow life will wilt away
Without the wind dead leaves can’t blow away old branches can’t break away
Without the lightening there is no charge in your life positive or negative you need both to create a spark……….

Today there was minimal communication through text but communication none the less.
I will accept that for now
I still feel your spirit
I need to hear your voice
It’s late now
I’ve researched
I’ve listened to lectures
I’ve showered
And now I will sleep
Bonsoir mes Amis
Bonne nuit mon roi
Nob nala

Morning Poem 10

It’s early and I’m about to start my day
I miss the morning conversations
I miss the sound of your voice
I’m trying to move on but it’s hard
It’s going to be a busy day at work
I just hope it goes quick
Fast moving
Heart beats
Nothing left to speak

Before I Slumber 7

I had a pretty good day
spent time building
on today’s mathematics
Spent some time with friends
came home and talked to my cousin
received a reading about love
the message said to let it go
but I don’t want to lol
I know the time is now
I know its probably over
I know it ended before it started
I know it wasn’t my fault
I know yeah I know
It doesn’t change how I feel
I’ll love you always
until we see each other face 2 face

Morning Poem 9

I woke up with expectation
I expected to see a message from you
But to my unsurprised there was nothing
Nothing but a few ran done emails
And one follower notification from Instagram
Yet I hold in to faith that you will once again communicate with me
You will finally call and say in sorry and I love you
My wishes may seen far fetched based upon the uncanny circumstances you stopped talking to me
But I believe God is bigger than your unbelief
Off to church I go to give honor to the one who sustains
Good day world
Let’s get this day moving

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Morning Poem 8

Awaken by dongs and bells from my phone
It was my BFF sending me massages
She wants she’s butter and salt scrubs
So her body will be fresh and soft
Demands thrown at me to where only white to the wedding
I digress
I dreamed I was a woman getting married but I don’t know to who then I left on a plane to France to with my husband
I dreamed I saw you and we locked eyes I said I missed you and you just turned off the computer screen
Please don’t shut me out
I love you
I pray this dream was just scare me
I pray it’s not a representation of reality
God I need you to fix this
But only if it’s your will
Good day world
Happy Saturday

Morning poem 6

Good morning
Thank you for another day
My bed doesn’t want to release me
It’s warn and comfortable
I’m like a baby being swaddled
Except I wish it were him holding me.
Longing to here is voice
I watched videos of you drumming
I miss the sound of your drum
It’s like my heartbeat
I want to call but I’m respecting your space
Work day ahead of me praying for a tranquil day
Just downloaded glide my siStar had something to say
Good day everyone
Bonne journée mon roi
Talk you later inshallah

Morning Poem 5

I don’t want to get up
Late night conversation with the BFF
Encouraging me to leave wall enough alone
Who can spend days without talking to the one they love
Unstable man
Unstable ways
Insecure at best
But I love him still
Sometimes God gives you what you want
But then we don’t know how to treat it
Life doesn’t stop
Steady moving forward
I pray that you catch up
I hoped that you’d be with me
Traveling the world
House in Dakar
A family
You and I
Promises you made
Tend to quickly fade
I wonder if this is why
She left
Why she never returned
Except for once
After 4yrs
I wonder
I ponder
I prepare for Senegal
December 2014
I pray you’re not there
I don’t like awkward things
Day started
Late post
I pray you’re well
I miss you the most

Before I slumber #1

Shower fresh
Skin is Shea butter soft
Gently scented with pure lavender
I lay in bed and I think of you
I shed a single tear
I long to hear your voice
How do I survive the silence 30 days until Ramadan is over.
Will I hear your voice at the end
So I prepare for you
Bed is made fresh new sheets
I lay one side
the other side is prepared for you
Nightstand reserved for you
Headphones, the holy Koran, your favorite cologne, and a few of your favorite things.
I burn churai for you
Filling the room with the sweet smell of love
I give thanks to God for another day
Praise and glory to the all knowing one
I pray for your safety and well being our families and friends
I bring this musing to a close
And say goodnight to the empty side of the bed where you will soon lay your head.
Bonne nuit mon roi
Nob nala