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It’s Been A Long Time

It’s been a long time

since the last time I was held

hand to thigh

back to chest

lips to neck

leg to leg

intertwined betwixt these thighs of mine


It’s been a long time

since the last time I felt special

long distance love

face to face feels better

no more kisses through the phone

real kisses are much wetter

this is only temporary

weekend getaway

but I don’t want it to end


It’s been a long time

since I felt the way when I 1st loved you

I’ll just enjoy what this is now

too afraid to say lets give it another try

too afraid to say I still love you

and I couldn’t stop if I tried

but instead I’ll settle for this weekend visit

enjoy the laughs, the cuddles & the love

don’t want to mess up and crash


It’s been a long time

and I want to make these moments last


Morning Poem 8

Awaken by dongs and bells from my phone
It was my BFF sending me massages
She wants she’s butter and salt scrubs
So her body will be fresh and soft
Demands thrown at me to where only white to the wedding
I digress
I dreamed I was a woman getting married but I don’t know to who then I left on a plane to France to with my husband
I dreamed I saw you and we locked eyes I said I missed you and you just turned off the computer screen
Please don’t shut me out
I love you
I pray this dream was just scare me
I pray it’s not a representation of reality
God I need you to fix this
But only if it’s your will
Good day world
Happy Saturday

Before I Slumber 3

Before I slumber 3
Today was good
I focused on my business
Posting and what not
Work was slow and easy
I thought about him all day
Still trying to make sense of this
It was suggested to let you go
But I’m not sure if I can
About to shower
Pray to the most high
Give thanks for his mercy & grace
Ask for protection for you
And direction for us
And go to sleep
Bonsoir monde
Bonsoir mon roi
Je me manqué lui
Nob Nala

Morning Poem 5

I don’t want to get up
Late night conversation with the BFF
Encouraging me to leave wall enough alone
Who can spend days without talking to the one they love
Unstable man
Unstable ways
Insecure at best
But I love him still
Sometimes God gives you what you want
But then we don’t know how to treat it
Life doesn’t stop
Steady moving forward
I pray that you catch up
I hoped that you’d be with me
Traveling the world
House in Dakar
A family
You and I
Promises you made
Tend to quickly fade
I wonder if this is why
She left
Why she never returned
Except for once
After 4yrs
I wonder
I ponder
I prepare for Senegal
December 2014
I pray you’re not there
I don’t like awkward things
Day started
Late post
I pray you’re well
I miss you the most

To The Lover In Me

This to the lover in me…To the woman who longs for one to share her heart with, but afraid to love again.
Too many lies
Too many broken promises
Too much hurt & pain
Too many whispers of delectable words preceding from soft lips followed by gentle kisses

I love you endlessly ended with but this is the end of you and me
I love you dearly ended with its not you it’s me
I told her to leave me alone ends with its her I want and her alone
So, instead of being the hopeless romantic, I go on in this journey as the loveless romantic

To hear your voice is like torture, but I can’t delete your voicenotes
To see your face is like pain, but I can’t delete your pictures
Receiving your text are heart piercing, but I can’t tell you to stop
To still hear you say you love me is deafening but you still remain with her

The question still remains did you really love me? If you ever decide to tell me
I don’t think I would be able to believe you, because if you did you’d be here with me
You should never throw your pearls to the swine they say, but its ok because you seem to like laying with one just fine.
This is to the lover in me the one who gave love endlessly to a man who lied only to get a part of the best of me