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New Day

I awaken to bright lights and glare

The sun shines through my window

I just lie in bed and stare

Good morning!

Gentle nudges from the dog 

Time to get up and start the day

Life is good even on a bad day 

New adventures new issues

I guess you could say I make my own news

I give up

I give up

Love has no room for me

I tried it again and it failed

no need to feel for me

its nothing out of the ordinary

So, I’ll just keep it cordial

no need to jump to conclusions

love is nothing but confusion

the most difficult task of all

is finding true love in a world

full of detachment

commitment fear

superficial standards

& unrealistic expectations

I loved I lost I digress

I give up

 

Glory

My hair was created to give God glory
My hair was created to give God glory
My hair was created to give God glory

My hair was created to give God glory
nor for you to gawk & stare at only
to run & tell your story of how my
hair was untamed, wild & ugly
Yeah I heard you over there laughing
about how I don’t look right, but the
truth is you just need to get your
mind right because

My hair was created to give God glory
My hair was created to give God glory
My hair was created to give God glory

My hair grows towards the same hills
from which comes your help & it
reaches in the same direction your
hands never seem to reach to in church
See my hair has a love relationship with
they sun & it’s continually in worship because

My hair was created to give God glory
My hair was created to give God glory
My hair was created to give God glory

My hair is an extension that connects
directly with the father and there is a
continuous worship service playing in
my head. Our hair is a direct extension
of our bodies nervous system, my hair
is an antenna and that’s why up above
my head I hear music in the air.

My hair was created to give God glory
My hair was created to give God glory
My hair was created to give God glory

So, their is no standard nor judgement
no corporate dress code, nor belief
no doctrine, nor ideal that will force me
to change my hair. No my hair is not stressed
so it doesn’t need a relaxer. No it’s not a wild
beast, so it doesn’t need to be tamed. No it is
not a dog so it doesn’t need to be trained.

How can we love the tree but destroy our roots?
God said my was perfect so I suggest you
believe the same because…………….

My hair was created to give God glory

Non

Je vous croyais
Je croyais en notre amour
Je croyais en votre mensonge
Il suffit de l’accepter, vous avez dit
Non, il vous aime ils ont dit
Ensuite, la vérité est révélée
Je me retrouve avec pas de réponse
aucune compréhension
aucune revoir
Il n’est pas tenu
rien du tout

Congratulations

So you’re getting married
Congratulations
Thanks for telling me I guess
I wish you well
Oh is that not the response you were expecting
It’s ok because I normally I would want to
jump and scream and declare my love for you
But it will fall on deaf ears and a closed heart
I use to wonder if it could have been me
But no need to dwell on what could have been
I’ll take what we have now and enjoy that as my sort of kind of friend
I’m done with crying trying to understand why
Why not me
Why was I never good enough
Why wasn’t my love ever good enough for you
So your friendship I’ll maintain
Try to keep the feelings of what was under wraps
Keeping my heart under lock and key
My legs under chastity
So your phallus can never penetrate my body again,
fertilizing my brain with thoughts of you
and awakening the love of before
and I will not be impregnated
With false feelings of love
Only to be disregarded and minimized to a added side benefit
Yet it only benefits you for the moment In time
Yet I’m left with the scraps of your heart you toss to me
and traces of your DNA left in my yoni
That takes months and months to remove
The feelings I can’t seem to control
The love I can’t seem to get rid of
The memories of good times I can’t stop replaying in my mind
The hurtful things you’ve said that I’ve forgave
The gun you pulled and put between my legs with tour hand in the trigger like a fool I forgave
The women you brought in my presence I forgave……….
Now it’s time to forgive myself for allowing myself to be mistreated
for the healing of myself and the piece of mind for myself
I loved you more than words can say
more than science can explain
More than there are stars in the sky
Yet my love wasn’t good enough
My feelings were never important enough
My pain never concerned you enough
My tears never moved you enough
Nonetheless I wish you god speed
I pray blessings for your life
Congratulations once again
Finally I can say it’s the end

Life

It’s funny how life works sometimes, you want something, you go after it you get it and then you find out that it comes with things you didn’t expect.

So, what do you do with it because you did really want it but you didn’t expect to have to deal with the difficulty & work that came with it.

The easy way out is to discard it or walk away from it but depending on What it is, you may find that abandoning it may be more of an issue than working with it or fixing it.

Then if you decide to try to repair it or work with it there is a place in that moment when you will have to take the time to learn it, study it, & analyze it because you did chose it so you own it in a sense.

It represents what you desire. It represents who you are right now in life. It represents who you are becoming. It represents your visible and hidden flaws in your character. It essentially is you in the form of a person place or thing.

It maybe great to some and crappy to others. It may need improvement or a full make over. It may need restoration. It may need love. It may be it’s best or it may be it’s worst. It can be transformed, it can be healed, it can be destroyed.

Whatever your it is accept it and do with it what needs to be done to the best of your God given ability because It may be the door to your destiny or it can be the life you never thought could be. It could be the end of something so you can begin it. Feed it, nourish it, prune it, burn it, restart it, start it, stop it, work it, give it, relinquish it, take it, receive it, open it, close it, stomp it, beat it, catch it, teach it, love it, live in it, write it, star in it, sang it, scream it, dammit just do it

Unapologetically be whatever, use whatever, love whatever, do whatever, it was meant to be

Before I Slumber 9

Money us the root of all evil
Family + money = problems
No discussion only arguing
Tears shed no sympathy given
Got to make a move
It’s long over due
Spent the day handling business
Discussed my Africa trip
Can’t wait to see my fam
Spent the rest if the day with dad
Old G wisdom given
Background history given
Whipping up werk in the lab
Shea butter is the game
MoZaic is my name
Thoughts of him still fill my head
I need to see my love
I need to kiss his bald head
Let me get this butter done
So it can ship in the morning
Bonsoir world

Morning Poem 11

Awaken by the sun
Checked the time
Oh shoot I overslept
Call off work
I wish you could be here next to me
Talked to my BFF
Made plans for http://www.nzuriwatubeauty.com
Now to try and eat some breakfast
Good day good people

Before I Slumber 8

I love the sound of the rain
The rumble of the thunder
The flash of the lightening
The calmness after the storm
Storms are necessary for the life process of growth.
Without the rain grass doesn’t grow life will wilt away
Without the wind dead leaves can’t blow away old branches can’t break away
Without the lightening there is no charge in your life positive or negative you need both to create a spark……….

Today there was minimal communication through text but communication none the less.
I will accept that for now
I still feel your spirit
I need to hear your voice
It’s late now
I’ve researched
I’ve listened to lectures
I’ve showered
And now I will sleep
Bonsoir mes Amis
Bonne nuit mon roi
Nob nala

Morning Poem 10

It’s early and I’m about to start my day
I miss the morning conversations
I miss the sound of your voice
I’m trying to move on but it’s hard
It’s going to be a busy day at work
I just hope it goes quick
Fast moving
Heart beats
Nothing left to speak